I have written a play that is a love story between a non compliant schizophrenic woman and a man who can travel to different realities.
I am about to go into therapy again because of how far up i have climbed around this but I have a pride / stigma issue around my own Schizophrenia and Autism, where i carry a lot of internal and external stigma.
I had a read through that went well, but then got caught up in producing it myself for the last week - out of lack of confidence that anyone would want to produce it otherwise. This was straight after showing it to people who loved it.
I think the self doubt I've seen in artists (my photographer sister) is unbelievably difficult to deal with. I think I'm experiencing it now.
I feel eviscerated when I get feedback - I'm sure it's the same for everyone.
I need to get on with the final editing stages after I recover for another week.
The beautiful thing about theatre, about writing plays, is when someone else becomes as passionate about your play as you are. It happens. They see things you don't, find things, sometimes they are amazing things that you don't even realize you've written. They have a vision for your play that does not take away from yours, but adds to it...beautifully.
Edd, the kindness of strangers is something I find that I don't trust. I really am going to need that therapy.
Visions of others makes sense - so many ideas and feedback - and seeing my work come off the page at a read through for the first time in my life last week... Visions of others is a great thing to rely on. I went to the theatre last night and I couldn't believe what a collaborative effort a play is! I know the writer did not also get the sound and lighting perfect and do the choreography.
Kindness of strangers - I find it difficult to be kind to anyone but people are kind to me all the time.